一花一世界

晚上无聊，下载《不能没有你》，关了灯，全屏，黑白的影像，一路看得我心惊胆战，底层贫民的生活，摇摇欲坠的生活。突然想起刚刚看的《目送》，什么是幸福，就是不再恐惧，忐忑。不再为今天的晚餐担心，晚上回家一切如初。

 家雄危险作业打黑工，随时丧命。妹仔和家熊亲生亲养却是非法，随时被人起诉。散工作业随时被炒。小仓库蜗居，电线水都是私接，非法，随时被人赶走。唯一代步工具——摩托随时没油……开头短短，导演就埋了这么多种可能，在时光网不小心看到评论，大多数是挣扎的平民泪，脆弱的亲情面临考验…… 社会底层最弱的人会用最极端的方式争取自己的利益？很担心……

他们很弱小，没有法律武器，没有社会关系，没有最基础的物质基础，面对浩瀚的机制，繁琐的公文，他们手足无措，不知道如何辩解，但是他们坚信自己所坚信的，保持着人间最淳朴的感情，疼爱自己的子女，照顾自己的老人，爱护自己的伴侣，珍惜自己的所得…… 我不知道为什么导演选择这样的题材，是因为他想让我们把目光关注这些阶层，还是在这样的题材中更能找到人性，更能表现这个时代的焦虑…… 不知道如此这样的小人物导演会怎样地铺陈展开……

Tonight I was  little boring, downloaded a movie named Could Not Without You.  Turned off the light, fullsrcreen, color (black and white ) film. I was very anexity, poor people without any protect. At this time, sentences recalled in  the book MU SONG.What is happiness? No fear nor worried. 

In this film, life is full of  fragile  .Our principle, Work illeagal, WuXiong, do dangerous job. The only child is illegal, he has no leagal right to live with he, XiaoMei,beacause he was lied by his girlfriend,  married before knew him.  Place he living is  illeagal, they be dispelled anytime.

The people, who at the bottom of the socienty, how can they fight for themselves. They are very weak, do not armed with law, haven’t  any society releationship, no money, When they facing the complicated system, files , they do not know how to deal with. They just know some basic pinciples, loving their children, taking care of older people, cherishing what they have.

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 recall vt. 想起

 Anxiety vt, 焦虑

 happiness；幸福

dispel vt. 驱赶

黑白电影，color (black and white ) film

arm with 以什么武装自己

arm with money

arm wiht cool

又做噩梦了，早上醒来，左手腕竟然还抽筋了，晚上的噩梦连着一天的抽筋，很好，非常好。
Again !dream nightmare, unluckily ,my wrist cramped!, so nice !!

突然就这样毫无征兆地开始了一天，单手穿衣服，牛仔裤，Tshirt，鞋子，袜子，对了，还得系鞋带，一只手弄着它，总会有失偏颇，力气用不上，轻轻地用左手腕压着疼，明明用不上半点力，却见它青筋暴起，钻心地疼，见鬼。
So I began my one-hand day, one-hand put on clothe, jeans, T-shirt, shoes, stockes, by the way, I had to tie my shoes by one-hand, could not staiblize the shoelace, when I try to help with my cramped wrist, ache happened immediately. Very painful. Dam.

单手背包，单手拿钱包，单手把钱取出来，扶着的左手腕像不似自己身体的一部分，握着另一块鸡翅，皮包骨，哈哈，没有什么温度。
One-hand taking out pocket, and then money. It seems the cramped wrist is out of my body, when I touched it with my right hand, the same I touched with a chicken wing.

车上无事阅读《晚蛾》，
“你记得你额头第一次皱纹什么时候出现？
你什么时候不能读小字？
你怕老么？
你觉得自己丑么？
你希望什么时候死？
我如果到你的坟头，我要带什么花？
你的遗物留给谁？你相信灵魂不灭么？”
I read a novel and found such sentences:
Do you still remember the first time wrinkles appear on your forehand.
The time you could not read little character?
Are you afraid getting old ?
When are you wish to die?
When I go to your grave, What flowers should I bring?
You will give your belongs to who?

Do you believe soul woul not die?

人老了会是什么样子，我老了会如何，真是可怕的问题。年轻力壮如我，现在无端一个手腕抽筋已经可以足足让我痛苦半天，平时最基本的打键盘也成为难事，稍一动作，扯着疼。筋？看不见它，我也摸不着你。自己的身体不了解，现代人的可悲。纠结了一天，下班坐车的路上一路自己挼搓，竟然晚上好转，看来，抽筋的人是没有懒惰的权利，手腕抽筋，再见。

总结：
手腕抽筋，慢慢揉搓就可以了，别怕疼，不能懒。

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Cramp 抽筋 V. cramp in one’s legs

噩梦nightmare
系鞋带
Tie one’s shoes
鞋带 shoelace
手腕 wrist, n.
皱纹 wrinkle

backstroke仰泳

今天是2009年10月6日星期二，我看到一个公告牌，想到一件事情：学游泳。可惜心血来潮好想法总能被现实无情地浇灭，工作人员冷冷地告诉我，成人培训班，晚上6点50到8点50，1000块15次课（记忆中是这样的数字）。2009年成人班已经结束，2010年5月才开始，价格未知。

是的，上帝，我会游泳了，从最简单的狗爬式，到最随处可见的蛙泳，到最舒服最省力的仰泳，一个夏天游泳不超过5次，泳衣不知道换了多少次了（从小到大这样算），没有教练，没有学费，学游泳的事情90%都是自己摸索，每次总是在游泳池最浅的边上，站在水里，单脚跳，努力像周围的人一样，推开水，滑向前……

还是想一口气游上两百米，在标准池里畅游，有耐力，有技巧，换气，自由，不再怕脚下无地心慌慌，自在地飘在大海上，摸摸传说中的防鲨网（不是想见到鲨鱼。。）……

A wish of 2010 summer
Today is Tuesday, October 6,2009,when I saw a bulletin, an idea came up to me, Learn Swimming. Unluckily, this training has ended up already. What I want,only can carry out in 2010,more than 6 months, so I writed down on my plan book.Wish I could make it come ture and deal with my schedule.
Yes, I can swim, the easiest dog-style swimming, normal breaststroke, comfortable backstroke.
Usually, in one year I just swim less than 5 times, no coach,no fees, 90% is teaching myself. Everytime I will choose shallow water, standing with one foot, learning swimming like others.

I wish one day, I can swim over 200 meters and swim freely in the sea and wave. God bless me. come on!
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bulletin,n.公示牌
schedule n.时间表
coach n. 教练员
Stroke 其中一种意思 泳姿，其他意思还有，中风，击球，
crawl 自由泳
breaststroke 蛙泳
浅水区 shallow waters
come on 加油

ABBA的经典老歌《Money ,money. money，场景虽老，曲调歌词很好，听了就知道。

Octomber is a good month, having two eggs first

10.1日，肠粉是4块。10.3日，肠粉是5块，
October 1st, Steamed Rice Rolls cost 4 yuan.
October 3rd, Steamed Rice Rolls cost 5 yuan.

问曰：涨价了？
帅哥答道：今日是好日子，两个鸡蛋，足足5块的料。（当日是国庆也是中秋，广东人的大节）
Ask: raise the price?

The boy answer: Today is a lucky day, 2 eggs are reserved, vauled to 5 yuan.
Ps:Two festival, Mid-autumn Day and National Day.

这次2009年，我们又开始放长假了，问我有什么感受？到处都是结婚人。某人先说了，结婚嘛，我定了日子，没有定人。哈哈。How about you?10.1日看《妈妈咪呀》10.2日佳美美大婚，10.3日，罗薇大婚，10.4日《梅尔切的婚礼》，一不小心，10月成了结婚记。
This year, 2009 we have Golden Week again. How do I feel? Wedding is everywhere.
When I ask one friend, when do you marry ?
He said, I had set a good date, but no person setted yet .
So, it doesn’ matter, what we care is now.
Do the right choice at the right time.

第一次朋友结婚，第一次同学的婚礼。红包虽然不是个问题，但是穿着也成为问题，
This is my frist time to attend wedding for my friend and classmate. Luky money is not difficult, but I do not know exactly how dress in the situation. Som friend dress sexy and beatutiful, some dress on elegent cheong-sam.

穿得漂亮些，穿得正式些，有些人说女的最起码得穿裙子，最好是连衣裙，后来就看到美丽惊艳的默默同学，大方得体的考拉（旗袍）。
第二天就学乖了，想起一件小裙子拿来穿上，紫红格子短裙色，外罩薄薄小黑纱显得有点意思，高跟鞋没穿，还是百搭我的小红鞋，盛得同学们的欣赏，哈哈。有意思。
Second time, in my classmate’s wedding, I wore a dress with purple and bule, a black yarn outside, no high_heel shoes because it left in my office, my red shoes instead.

两天的婚姻，拍照必不可少，在这个过程中深感我的水平不够，偏色，虚像。婚姻场合，室内酒店，光线偏黄，夜晚室内，人像飘渺，闪光灯是我最不喜欢用的，一片惨白，颜色尽失，所以只拿模糊换颜色，失。。。
In Two wedding, camera became neccerssay. I was upset about my camera and myself. Because I can’t mange my little camera well enough, blurred fingure, too much yellow light.I must improve and familiar about my little DC.

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肠粉Steamed Rice Rolls

冬菜牛肉肠粉 ：Steamed Rice Rolls with Beef and Preserved Vegetables
马蹄鲜虾肠粉 ：Steamed Rice Rolls with Shrimp and Water Chestnuts
清心斋肠粉 ：Steamed Rice Rolls with Vegetables
蒸肠粉 ：Steamed Rice Rolls

十月Octomber
涨价：raise the price

旗袍：cheong-sam
紫色：purple
闪光灯flash
高跟鞋high-heel shoes
模糊blur
红包：lucky money

“放下你的笔，我的课堂不用记太多笔记，重要的是眼到——观察，口到——参与活动，回答问题，耳到——聆听，脑到——思维动起来。|”这是培训师汪sir的开场白。

进入公司有段时间，其实早就有所期待，因为企业文化单单从同事的只言片语和厚厚的企业18期刊物中无法拼凑出概貌。非常迫切地想知道这个公司，正如我想展开的工作，非常迫切地希望整本杂志在我脑中绘出图形，收到小道消息，听说培训一天，末了还要有个杀手锏——结业考试。无考不欢，即使是培训也如此，谁叫世上除了不专一的花心萝卜多如牛毛，不专心，不上心人士也比比皆是，尽在你我中。拿起笔来习惯记笔记，突然被劝说：you didn’t need to do this.突然有点不适应，讲师鼓励不做笔记，印象中似乎有过，只是年岁久远，或者此人个人风格不容易辨识，具体时间，地点隐忧早已忘记，暂且当此话为第一人好了。最多的印象反而是那句熟悉的：“好记性不如一个烂笔头”。

从什么时候起，开始有了做笔记的习惯？因为大家有记笔记的习惯，所以又了一种本，名为：笔记本。每次看到官方政府新闻，开个大会，大家煞有介事地提笔修修改改，认真听取讲述人意见，低头写写，好不热闹。每次看到这些就在心里暗笑，一到自己开会，也一不小心拿着笔纸备用，说不准会得说点什么，吩咐点什么，拿上笔与纸，显得有模有样，尊重与会人员，没事自己还可以在白纸上写写画画，以备不时之需。说好听了是好好记录，可以有备查看，查看也是为了下着——考试，提问。是驴子是马，总得拉出来遛遛，这遛的不是别的什么，是授课的老师强调的重点，讲述的要点。是他的，而不是“你”的。

新世纪是“自己”的世纪，跟着别人跑没人会理你，关心“YOU”的才是正道。人性化管理，人性化设计，人性化生产。守着你自己的想法，边思考边理解，选择自己需要的，想想自己缺少的，思考，再思考，学会多问几个“为什么”，多问自己真正想要什么，能做什么。

今天来培训，自己真正想知道什么。
1.公司的基本状况，公司各部门的业务职责。（YES，搞清楚了。公司主要以直营店为主，南方开拓不错。}
2.重量级人物们的庐山真面目，姓名。（人力资源，电脑部，薪酬绩效等）
3.培训如何设置，如何一个人连续几个小时在公众面前唱独角戏，大家还乐于听，还能让自己目的达到。
4.PPT到底如何做，还有哪些表现方式。（正做杂志规划提案PPT~，正修改斟酌中）
5.再次问自己，来了这公司，新环境，到底为了什么，想干点什么……

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Put down your pen
Put down your pen, you need not take notes in my class. From my point of view, there are eles more important thing for you, eye to observe, mouth to speak and say what you think, ear to listen what you need to know, head to think and ask yourself.his is the first sentece that he speak in the training.

Take notes when at meeting, but, today, the teacher suddently speak another, you need not to do this in my class. A little strange, more comfortable, he reminded us tthat the important thing was thinking.

For long, I use to taking notes in meeting and class, many teacher told us, good memorry will not be better than a pen, we had to write down something, pretend to be a good student. Write down sth for test or question.

PS:
记笔记 take notes

又开始周而复始的循环，找工作，投简历，准备面试，面试。早上是一家做培训的公司。招聘唯一含金量的要求：文笔突出。11点钟到，新闻大厦2号楼，两次误闯亮堂的大厅，辗转找到一个80年代样式，玻璃全部采用经典老款茶色，不似现在流行的有机玻璃。走进大厅，一条窄道路直通里面，旁边两个大门敞开，一边是厨房冰火两重天，白帽子师傅正在创造美味的大锅菜，另一边是干干静静齐齐整整“招商银行职工饭堂”几排桌椅排开。顺着诡异的小道往前，到头，顺着无比讨厌的液晶显示广告屏的声音方向，发现了一个货梯，静静地等着我。进了里面才发现电梯只上6楼，我的面试地点在7楼。

到了地方，坐在一间大教室里排队叫号等待面试（像去医院看病）。一看见大家都在一个教室，以为又来那种集体面试的快速淘汰法则，还好错觉落空。大家各填一张表格，排队叫号，女HR一对一面谈。11点的面试时间，6个人同时到来，先到先入，后到多等，填完简单的面试表格，就开始了我漫长的等待时间。小小10分钟光景，6个人已面试完毕，被主考官挥手笑送。到我才知道其中奥妙，基本工资1800，补贴，奖励200左右，远远低于深圳09平均工资水平，所以人都走光了。

Interview in an training agency
These days I was back to the seeking job, searching opportunity, sending resume, getting interview phone calls, interview. yesterday morning, I went to a training company to interview for editor, it requires well done in writing. 11 am, I arrived at News Building, went to two hall room by mistake, at last an old style building was found， no hall exactly, just one way forward and two big rooms for China Merchants Bank, cooking and cantee. I also Sadly found that the lift only reach to 6 floor, I need to arrive 7! so , I had to go upstaris by foot with high heels, a little pinch.

when I got there at 10:58 am, 6 candidates had arrive there, waiting. Everyone got a interview form to fill and waited to be called. 20 minutes passed, 6 people say goodbye farewell. When she called me, I followed into another classroom, briefly introduced myself, I began to know their salary system, 1800 for probation, 200 allowance may be get if you change to formal employee, much lower than the normal level in Shenzhen 2009, so many people went away in a quick speed.

高跟鞋：high heels
(boots 靴子；high heels 高跟鞋， sandals 凉鞋， slippers拖鞋)
鞋子有点紧!°The shoes are a bit tight.
pinch 夹脚 !°My shoes pinch. shoe !

补贴：allowance
bonus 分红，meirt

错误地 by mistake

昨日周日，大白天空气好，中午大吃一顿肉餐，猪耳朵，鸡爪等，其实还是最喜欢老姐做的凉拌青菜花菜。酒足饭饱，大家各把房门一关，蒙头大睡，一起来就头晕晕脑重重，想不起干啥，当然其实早想去荔枝公园，只是不知道该不该去。犹豫了半天，老弟劝我想去就去吧，反正闷在家里一天了。去了英语角，人都还不错，还是围在那位HK人旁边，听他讲事情，问问他如何学英文，如果系统地去学这个困难的事情。大家一起聊了许多，不过他觉得，英语既然是门语言，还是得用，如果没有环境，你可以自己跟自己练习，没有人有权力嘲笑你。每天都保持着，每天都可以从不同的渠道去了解，去学习这个广博的文化。拥有了英文，你就拥有了许多自由，了解知识的自由，表达的自由，可以增强你的自信，你的见闻，帮助别人更好地了解你的感受，而不是一味的地听别人的。 you can teach yourself. yes. man 。 哈哈

Yesterday was Sunday, we are all at home, farther, mother, sister, twin briother, his girlfriend and I . Mother brought many cooked food, pig ears, chicken claws and some vegetable salad. After one hour and half rest, I got up from my comfortable bed, not comfortable. too long for me, a little dizzy. So I decide to go to the Licheen Park, the English corner. Some of foriengers or Egnlish talkers will be there every Sunday. Walk in the corner with brave, I spent many time on listening and talking with a Hk people, he is pshycial hurted, a good people to come to Shenzhen every Sunday, sharing some atitute and experience in his life and English learning. Try to learn English, you can teach yourself, not positive, no tease, no laugh, just active, just praise. just try and keep.

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lichee n. 荔枝
dizzy a. 头晕的

给你大体分析一下：
都有“爪子”的意思。
其中只有paw和clutch可以用来表示人的手，paw表示粗笨的那种,clutch多表示五指分开正要抓东西那种状态的手（talon有时也用来表示人手，但通常也是隐喻的手法，形容那种干瘦的，有些恐怖的比如巫婆的手）。

*claw通常指四足或两足动物的脚爪，有尖刺的那种。如狗猫爪，鸟爪等。
*paw指人手或四足动物的脚爪。如狗猫爪，马蹄。
*talon专指猛禽，如鹰的爪子。
*clutch ：做抓取动作的手、螯、爪. you clutch yourself and swelling.

ram, n. 锤子。
the Ram. 大锤子。主人公喜欢别人这样称呼他。call me Ram
 

~~受伤~~~~
gash 名词，很长的伤口
get a gash, suffer numberous gash around

chest 胸腔
He had numberous gashs on the chest.

heart attack 心脏病
mortality n. 死亡率
He tumbled down on the night before

apponent n. 对手

sustain  v. 承受，支撑
no relationship could sustain, he had to chose to be the wrestler again.
woo v. 求爱，求婚
woo sb 向某人表白, He try to woo but rejectected.

throughtful adj.  体贴的

ram n. 撞击工具
strip n.& v. 脱衣服，脱衣舞
strip dancer
(注意：stripe 是条的意思)

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deli n. （美口）熟食店

live under the shadow
quit the job

insult sb 辱骂某人
curse sb for sth 因为某事辱骂某人

看完了，发现还可以，有点意思，折腾完暴风影音，装，卸，装，卸，装，卸几次后，《本杰明巴顿奇事》终于看完，回程梦里一直回味最后几句话，

Good night B
Some people are bored to the sea by the river.
some is strake by lighten.
Some have a fear on music.
Some are artists.
Some swim.
Some know buttons.
some know Shakespear
some are mothers.
and some people … dance.

发现一个超级大美女，凯特布兰切特，终于知道为什么科恩兄弟的作品，老有这个女人了，真是非常厉害，非常美，非常又味道。

我们都会老，一切都会过去。正如那句俗话说的一样，我们赤裸裸地来，也会赤裸裸地去。你的生命是你的，命运也是，没有人可以夺走。谁说弄船的成不了艺术家，迈克船长也可以做一个纹身艺术家。做吧，按照你自己的想法，生活就是这样，有时候顺利，一万个偶然中又成就了必然。做吧，尽情地去享受其中的乐趣与苦恼，因为你永远不知道下一秒会发生什么。没有什么是能成为永远，大多数它们都只是你生命中的某个阶段。离开的时候，也请释怀，就让它们安静地去，你不必哭泣也不必惊慌，生命就是如此，有时它是这样，有时它又会给你弄得一团糟。

还记得很小的时候，有一天，我走在路上，一个安静的路上，一个满脸皱纹的老人从我对面走来，从来没有见过如此苍老的人们，大概我的童年都没又多少和老人家长辈相处的日子，我很害怕，觉得很可怕，心里想，如果哪一天，我也如此苍老，脸上都是皱纹，每一步走路都让我使劲全力，那我自杀好了，每天看到那么丑，那么老的自己。现在有时也会这么想，不要活到90岁，70岁左右就OK了，不要太老，身子太累。现在想来，真是好可爱的想法，哈哈。
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重大发现！Big discovery!
知道如何下手自己的英文写作了。I find a way to improve my English written skill.
双语写日记。Bilingual dariy
看到一位深圳在港大做学生的博客如此记述，inspired by a Shenzhen boy’s dariy, studying in the University of Hongkong.
眼看自己正愁着如何弄英文，at the time I plan to learn English in a proper way.
双语表述，就是一条~ , That is it ! Bilingual

我提到的那位博客，The bolg I mentioned
里面有香港的一些景色，It has some beatiful scenes about HK
他是个摄影爱好者～ He is a shutterbug.
http://octopussz.spaces.live.com

学到两个单词：
1.bilingual 形容词，双语 bilingual education 双语教育
2. shutterbug 美国俚语， 摄影爱好者。